I screw up myself!

I walk myself like block for used to be many years but after I had sick for over one years.
which I had sick for over one years. starting to hurt ind  I was in shock myself. and I had no idea what I was realistic that (I didn't even know what had happened my life I never really cried for me self  until decade later)
but I would find myself  crying most then was appropriate for other people I hardly knew other way in the my emotions all over the people and media emotions all over the peoples.
I would have questioned my choices and not I cant in private to avoid accountability.

The big question is what I do other written the excuses  written down delete the ridiculous  one's.
Maybe this is where I am always going wrong my most likely to fail the I want it all and I want it now mentality of always looking for the short cat to reach a goal.
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                                          Millie and jack has send me a beautiful present!